This is going to be a personal post. I don’t know why I’m writing it, I just woke up and felt the need to write it. It’s going to be messy, so please bear with me. I’m not going to name anyone, I’m not even going to name the event. I don’t know why, maybe I’ll change my mind about the latter. As some of you see me at events, you’ve probably noticed the change, noticed I no longer come and join conversations. I sit on my own or with people I know well until it’s time to get books signed or leave. Some of you already know why.